October 18, 2008
I am surviving.
There has to be more to this experience than mere survival. At different points in my Ph.D. program, I think I found something more. However, now I just hope that I can fall asleep without the variables floating in my head, and wake up without "theory" being my first thought. -especially since those thoughts and concepts aren't really attached to anything. They are almost superficial thoughts. Not grounded. I, sometimes, am not grounded. I am surviving, but I am anxious to thrive. Today, tomorrow, and beyond. I plan to thrive. You must plan success or failure is the default. You must also plan to do more than merely survive.
If this were easy . . . everyone would do it.